Laughing is my coping mechanism…

I will always recall when one of my therapists called me out on me laughing over everything. I never had someone tell me the truth in my face. Needless to say I ended that relationship. I quit therapy I felt so “offended”. What do they know about me? Who did they think they were anyway? 

After I quit therapy I could constantly hear their voice in the back of my head. “Now, if that’s not funny why are you laughing”? I have coped like that most of my life. If I was offended laugh as if it’s nothing, if I feel like crap say your fine, smile and move along. Why did I continue doing this to myself? I did use laughter to protect myself because I didn’t want to get into all the issues in my life. 


I would rather be happy or pretend to be happy because it was easier. I’m not saying that I always fake my happiness, I love to laugh, be social, live my life and have fun. I like to surround myself with people because yes, I hate being alone. When I’m alone my anxiety kicks in and the negative little voices begin bringing  me down.

Smiling through bad things makes me feel like I have control over my emotions, but the truth is I just don’t want to deal with them. It’s easier to stuff my problems behind a door and slamming it shut. I’ll come back to deal with all those emotions when I’m ready. WRONG!

Life doesn’t work that way.

I don’t like feeling emotional pain, I’d rather be physically hurt in all honesty. Physical pain goes away but not emotional, it’s always still there. I don’t like to hurt people so I know that if they see me smile they don’t have to worry. I guess I have learned this means to be “strong”. I now also know that is very unhealthy and can actually even cause you physical pain! 

I have to learn how to cope with my problems; talking, music,writing and having a personal relationship with god really help me. I have to learn it’s ok to not be “ok”. People actually respect that, they won’t get offended if you just explain you are not in the mood for talking or just have a lot going on. 


Try not isolate yourself I tend to do that as well. Talking and letting out your feelings really does help. You may even need medication because you are depressed, there is no shame to that. Only you know what you’re going through and you’re the one who has to deal with it. You deserve to live the happiest life you can achieve. Try to find a healthy way to express yourself through something you love. Try new things til you find your thing it WILL be worth it. Try to feel your feelings if you have to cry, then cry, if you want scream, then scream. It is better to let your emotions out, but don’t use that as an excuse to hurt those around you. The best advice I could give you is talk to someone. Even if you don’t think it helps it really does! Find someone you trust or if it’s easier a stranger, just letting out what you have inside will help I promise. 

I’m still laughing most things away, but I’m learning it’s ok to express my emotions and dealing with them. You can’t hide them in forever. So go take that first step and fight for your happiness.

 

P.s – Hope that picture above made you smile!

-Katye

Ipsy Glam bag September 2017

Hey guys I know I’m posting this on the last days of September! Sorry, I have been struggling with mental health lately, but I’m getting the help I need so everything should be better soon. 

I finally have something ready for you guys so I hope you enjoy!

Can we simply take a moment to admire the simplicity and beauty of this bag! I love it, the inside is like a dark royal blue. The small studding all over gives just the correct amount of detail. It’s perfect. 

This months theme is Like a boss! So if you want to see what’s inside just keep scrolling!

P.R.M.I.T Beauty – GELlusion  shade January (Capricorn)


When I saw this nail polish it was screaming autumn. I put it on immediately. 

I loved it and so did my mom,  she snatched it up real quick! Another great thing is it is PETA certified, vegan and cruelty free! I will definitely use the heck out of this nail polish.

Ciaté London – Wonderwand Mascara in Black Magic


Next is this mascara right here, again how cute is the packaging! I love how the product seems magical.

This is a good mascara, the brush definitely gives volume and covers every eyelash. I also felt the wand gave me control over where and how much mascara I wanted to brush on.


I have straight eyelashes, but it definitely made a difference. I did not curl my lashes, prime them nothing. If you go all out with just the curling of the lashes It would look even better! It didn’t get too hard when it dried and it did not smudge- well since I was having an emotional day I had to put the mascara to the test ( had a crying session) and it did smudge off. Then again it never claimed to be waterproof. Definitely a mascara I like.

Eva NYC – Zero Gravity Volume Powder


You guys, packaging is everything! I will literally buy something I don’t even need because of cute packaging! In my opinion, this brand is killing it with their pink, fun, hair products! This product promises to give you volume and texture all with a sprinkle of this weightless, moisturizing powder.

Smashbox Cosmetics– PHOTO FINISH RADIANCE PRIMER

So this Is a primer from smashbox, a brand I really like, I guess I wasn’t all that excited with it becuase I try to stay away from shiny things on my skin ( I’m really not even a huge fan of highlighter)  but I’m excited to try. SmashBox primers haven’t let me down before, It has multi usage, you can you use under make up and on top as a highlighter. 

NEOGEN Dermalogy– Real Flower Cleansing Water – Rose


Let me just start by saying if you buy a full bottle of this it has actual rose petals in it! Can you say fancy? I really love my simple micellar water, but when I wanna feel extra pampered why not reach for this! It smells So Good!! I would use it as perfume if I could! 

Extra goodies:

Lime CrimeUnicorn Hair Duo in Blue Smoke

Common Labs – Mild Peeling Finger Pad

The above products were just extras I got with my points!

Thank you so much for reading! Sorry I have been so bad at writing lately! Please tell me what you think?! Any suggestions, comments welcome!

Also if you want an ipsy bag click here

-Katye

August Ipsy Glam bag!

Hey guys! My August ipsy bag is here and I wanna share it with you guys! 


The bag is super cute! Love the tassel and the ombré thing going on the products were awesome as well.

The bag included:

First Aid Beauty: Skin Rescue Deep Cleanser with Red Clay


Crown Brush: SS035 – Medium Face Contour Brush


theBalm Cosmetics: theBalm Voyage Vol. 2 Eyeshadow in Willkommen

 

Marc Anthony True Professional: Strictly Curls Curl Envy Perfect Curl Cream


Steve Laurant: Precision Tip Liner in Black

Well, that’s it guys! I thought to make this post nice and short if you have any questions, want to know more about a certain product or just want to chat leave a comment below! Btw I’m curious, what did you get in your ipsy bag? And if you are not signed up yet what are you waiting for? Click here to subscribe to ipsy!

Thank you for reading!

-Katye

Things I HAVE to share with you!!! PT.1 

Hey there guys, how’s it going? I feel like lately I have tried some great things worthy of sharing with you! Do you want to know what my picks are? Keep reading!

Today I have some recommendations for skin care, makeup, stores, snacks, blogs and apps!  

SNACKS:

Let’s start off with snacks! One of my fav. YouTubers is OBSESSED with Angie’s BoomChickaPop popcorn! After so many years I gave in and purchased some. OMG it is so good, I completely get why people are obsessed with it. The best part of all? It’s made with Real, simple ingredients. Plus, they have so many flavors to pick from! If you want a yummy snack and you don’t want to sacrifice flavor? This is for you guys.

(Above is my dog being super protective over the popcorn!)

Next thing I have been into is the Brookside crunchy clusters,  I don’t have a picture (they didn’t last that long) but I can tell you the flavor I had was the almond and berry flavor. They have a variety of mixes with different fruits, nuts and even bars.

Blogs:

Right away when it comes to blogs I have a couple to share with you. Most are a mix of DIY and beauty, plus most if not all of them are run by great females and are a HUGE inspiration to me!

A Beautiful Mess

Twinspiration 

Studio DIY 

Brit+Co

Go check them out!

Apps:

Honestly, my number one app I ALWAYS use when shopping is Ebates. I mean you get cash back for shopping? How great is that. If you shop online a lot this is for you! You can even receive cash back in stores as well double yay!

Next app and store I LOVE is Hollar. They have such great deals there. We order from there at least once a month, no lie both my sis and I! 

Even the individual who delivers our mail had a conversation with my mom about how they had never heard of it before, they went on the page out of curiosity and they had great deals! Plus, who can go wrong with that bright, orange box?

I’ll be back with a Pt.2 so for now let me know below some of your favorites in the comments.

-Katye

Ipsy Glam bag! July/17


Hello everyone here I am again showing you what I got in my July Ipsy Glam bag!

If you wanna see what was in my bag this month keep scrolling.


This months bag features Gudetama, a Japanese cartoon also known as “The Lazy Egg”. The theme was overeasy/Lazy beauty because we all need to take a step back from life and chill. 


Jersey Shore Cosmetics      Mandarin Green Orange & Ginger Mongongo Lip Conditioner

So let’s talk about this, I was SO EXCITED for this product. The packaging looked adorable and It was described as a citrus scented balm and you know I love anything citrus scented….I WAS FOOLED! I’m sorry this was awful, I didn’t like it at all! I immediately took it off my lips it was that bad in MY opinion. 


tarte                                         Rainforest of the Sea™ deep dive cleansing gel

I’m happy to see this product in my ipsy bag, I needed a new cleanser. My sister has it and she likes it. Plus it smells really nice and fresh!

OFRA Cosmetics                            Gold Rush Eyeshadow

I really like OFRA eye shadows, they have awesome pigmentation. I already have a BUNCH of eye shadows around the same color scheme so this is something that I like, but don’t really need.


Seraphine Botanicals               Lychee + Gold

Never tried this brand, but I’m excited for more! Their packaging is beautiful, this blush is girly! I’m kind of thinking I could use this maybe as an eyeshadow as well!


COUGAR Beauty Products              24 Hour Liquid Lipstick in Mulberry

New brand, very light weight on the lips. I am not a fan of pink tones, I tend to like more darkish, nude lip colors. This was really nice for a change. It’s a “24 hour” liquid lipstick and I had ice cream, Let’s just say my ice cream had some pink in it!


Well I wanted to end this blog with showing you the back of the ipsy bag! It’s adorable ( look at his little butt haha) Thank you for reading and please tell me what did you get in your ipsy bag? What was your fav. Product? Dislikes? Are you not an ipster yet? Become an Ipsy member by clicking here!

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DIY TASSELS!

Hey guys! Today I have a fun little DIY project- Tassels! I feel like they are a super cute and simple way to add flare to your keys, backpack, and purse etc. 

I am no pro and thanks to Pinterest I learned enough to make my own. So here we go:

I used a couple things:

-Thread ( the kind you make friendship bracelets with) or embroidery floss.

-beads (optional)
-scissors 

-A small piece of card board, you can even use the tube from ur toilet paper #repurpose (is that weird lol)

– key rings (optional)

First, you need to get your little rectangular piece of cardboard and make a slit in it.


Then get your string


I usually use a whole bundle for one tasssel, and wrap it around the cardboard. 

After this you want to tie the top to secure it.


Leave a little behind from the bundle you wrapped around the cardboard. Use that to tie and secure your thread.

Tie it twice like the picture above and it should look like this


You then need your scissors


And cut the bottom of your thread


Don’t worry about it being perfect you can always go back and fix that at the end.


Take it off the cardboard. Bunch the threads together and tie a thread of your choice to make the little “head”.


Then I personally just kept doing this forward and backward until I achieved the thickness of the band I wanted.


When finished it should look like this 

Now is your opportunity to even out the bottom to how you desire.


Your tassel is finished! I really enjoy adding a little more, so I added beads and a Keyring.



I have been a bit obsessed with these lately. 


The fun thing is there is no “right” way to this. You can add your own  flare on these cute tassels!

I hope you enjoyed this DIY! If you have any questions, suggestions, comments or pictures! please leave them below. Hope you try this out at home!

-Katye

Turning 25….


So I turned 25 on May 22, 2017. This to me is crazy I honestly don’t even feel 25, But I’m greatful to have lived this long and hope that I have many years still ahead. I wanted to share with you what  I did on my actual birthday. 

First off I was scared and got sung happy birthday from my little sister at midnight!

I was then given a good morning with this baby!

I was then forced out of my room where I was surprised by one of my best friends! 

She got me the cutest card! A Starbucks gift card, that cute balloon and cheesecake! She knows the way to my heart, coffee and cheesecake!

Isn’t it so pretty!

I later got this beautiful cupcake cake. 

( BTW aren’t those candles so cute? I bought them myself from this store I found on Instagram I will link it right below.)  Jamboree 

As I was joking around about biting into my cake my sister did this to me…

Yup, she pushed my head into the beautiful cupcake. 


I got these delicious smelling essential oils! They are actually life changing. I love citrus btw so they make me happy! 

I also got this beautiful bracelet and my sister got a matching one! They were made one of a kind for us!

 I loved everything! Just the fact that I was surrounded by the ppl I love and care for was such a gift! 

Thank you for reading to the end!

-Katye

Ipsy Glam bag may/17

Hey you guys, Now this month is a bit extra special to me because- ITS MY BIRTHDAY MONTH, and Mother’s Day, hello? Well with that said let’s check out this months glam bag!


This months theme was Summer Friday! I think the bag is cute, not my favorite though. When you think of summer what is the first thing to pop into your head? Ice cream? Pools? Fun in the sun! (Ok now it’s getting corny) This water proof baggy is super cute to have by your side with your summer essentials! 


Mellow Cosmetics, Creamy Matte Lipstick

First off I was so excited for this one, the packaging was great and the lipstick was gorgeous but, not on me! 

It is perfection! 

 
Just…. not on me! I already have problems with my oxygen running low and let’s just say, while I had this color on my sister asked me if I felt ok! My mom disliked it as well. I couldn’t agree more.


Pacifica, Island Life Eyeshadow Palette


Love the packaging again! Wasn’t really feeling the colors, for myself. I noticed some colors were really creamy and others more on the dry side. I really loved the peachy pink though.


Pixi by Petra, Endless Silky Eye Pen in OpalOvercoat  


Very pretty, shimmery and glides on with very little pressure! This one was a keeper! By the way it’s water proof as well.


Beauty & Pin-Ups, Fearless Hair Rescue Masque

I love the simple, black packaging. I have not tried this, yet, but I love hair masques or any deep conditioner. Really excited to try it out.


Adesse New York, Organic Infused Gel Effect Nail Lacquer in Surfer Girl

Love the brand not so much the color, I feel like it’s to bright for me.

Overall I think this bag had a good mix of things, you can do almost a whole look with these products. There were a few products I did not like, so my sister and I actually switched with eachother (she’s subscribed to ipsy as well). 

When we switched she gave me something I have been wanting! And it was the Starlooks  Pro NEW Artist Edition – Luxe Longwear Eye Liner Pen… the best part is it’s dual sided. On one side it’s your liquid eyeliner and the other side is a little stamp! I have not stopped wearing it! I actually had to go and buy two more!

Well thank you for taking the time to read this!  If you want to subscribe to ipsy I’ll link how to below!

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If you have any questions or comments please leave them down below! 

-Katye 

Letter to myself before getting sick…

Breathe, Just take a deep breath.


Life is about to change real quick for you, things are going to be completely out of your control but you will have your family and amazing medical staff/doctors with you every step of the way. 

You will understand so many things after you’re diagnosed with this illness, Why your legs would fall asleep so much, why it seemed like you had a stroke in middle school yet they said it was “Anxiety”. Why you couldn’t breathe, or why you had those huge bruises on your legs.

You will learn to live a TOTALLY different, scary life. You will get the hang of it, I’m not saying it will be easy. You are going to ask yourself and God why you! You will be frustrated, depressed, you will get to lows you never knew you could get to. 

It’s going to be you fighting to live- TO LIVE. You won’t be afraid of death anymore, but you will be afraid of leaving the ones you love behind. Your family will be told in a few occasions that you have a few hours to live because girl you get too close to death way too many times. It’s a very scary thought, but don’t worry you won’t die. 

You have to be strong for what is coming. This will actually make you a better person, selfless, humble, caring. You will see things from a different perspective and try to help more when you can. You will appreciate freedom, food, water, family, friends, your life in general.

Keep the people that are always there for you close and tell them how much you care for them everyday! Soon you will learn life can be taken away from you in seconds.

You can totally forget about the plans you had for your future life. They are COMPLETELY different now. They change pretty drastically, but you slowly start finding other things you are good at and try to find your new path. 


I know this will break your heart, but your sister is sick also. You knew this, yet you didn’t want to seem paranoid so you let the doctors confirm what you said. You get a lot of things right, you have a pretty good sixth sense girl! Trust it, believe it, Trust me.

Not a lot of people will understand what you are going through, other people only freak out if they hear the word cancer (which is terrible) but being chronically ill means living a difficult life. Pills keep you alive, you will even have chemo. Yes, it DOES feel crappy. Yes, you do lose hair and many other things you will find out.

People will think you are fine because they see you smiling or laughing, wearing makeup. I mean you do have good days, but until they live with you, or spend a day with you, on a bad day, they don’t know what it’s really like. So try to not pay attention to ignorant people who only speak because they can. 

The amount of new people who will be blessings in your life is HUGE. You will meet So many wonderful people, they will become like family and many of them will stick around. 

You will have friends in different states even countries! And you should probably start looking up The Spoon Theory and the term Spoonie. 

Your parents will be tired, hurt, but they will never give up. They will be frustrated, they will be scared and traumatized. You guys will learn to hate the hospital but also accept it as a second home. You will ride a helicopter, but you won’t remember anything. Actually there will be Many things you don’t remember (it’s the drugs) lol. 

Oh and remember how you were such a cry baby about pills? Honey you will have pills for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. Some days maybe more, but it’s ok you are a pro now. 

I think the hardest thing to live with is no one can cure what you and your sister have, For now. You will fight though and YOU HAVE TO KEEP FIGHTING! It’s hard having to fight with your own body, with your health! Sometimes….yes, you just want to give up because the pain is too much not just physically but emotionally. I promise you, you will get through it. You have amazing support from so many people. And you know what, you don’t lose your smile. I hope we never do. Stay strong you will get through this!

-Katye

Maybelline Great lash Royal Blue voxbox 

Hey guys! I can not believe it has taken me so long to make this post. I am finally reviewing the Maybelline great lash royal blue voxbox! I was pretty excited getting chosen for this box, This would be second voxbox I get and the fact that it’s makeup makes me Happy.

First, let me show you the cute box and the products.

 


I love the colors of the packaging, very bright. Reminded me of a watermelon, well, enough about the packaging let’s get to the actual product. I got really excited for this blue mascara, One because blue is my fav. Color, Two because this mascara used to be my holy grail when I first got into makeup (except it was in black), and Three last time I used blue mascara was in high school!

Overall I like it, don’t expect to get a bold, bright, blue. I have pretty dark hair so for me it was really hard to notice it; I put on some blue eyeliner to bring attention to my lashes (which I think works). If you have lighter hair I imagine it would be more noticeable or maybe using a white primer could work to make the color more intense, if you just want to try something new but subtle I think it’s perfect and fun. 

The eyeliner was super thin, perfect  for tight linning.

I hope you enjoyed this review and thanks to influenster and maybelline for these product! If you have any questions or comments please leave them below! 

-Katye

*I received Maybelline free/complimentary for testing purposes, but all opinions are my own. *