Laughing is my coping mechanism…

I will always recall when one of my therapists called me out on me laughing over everything. I never had someone tell me the truth in my face. Needless to say I ended that relationship. I quit therapy I felt so “offended”. What do they know about me? Who did they think they were anyway? 

After I quit therapy I could constantly hear their voice in the back of my head. “Now, if that’s not funny why are you laughing”? I have coped like that most of my life. If I was offended laugh as if it’s nothing, if I feel like crap say your fine, smile and move along. Why did I continue doing this to myself? I did use laughter to protect myself because I didn’t want to get into all the issues in my life. 


I would rather be happy or pretend to be happy because it was easier. I’m not saying that I always fake my happiness, I love to laugh, be social, live my life and have fun. I like to surround myself with people because yes, I hate being alone. When I’m alone my anxiety kicks in and the negative little voices begin bringing  me down.

Smiling through bad things makes me feel like I have control over my emotions, but the truth is I just don’t want to deal with them. It’s easier to stuff my problems behind a door and slamming it shut. I’ll come back to deal with all those emotions when I’m ready. WRONG!

Life doesn’t work that way.

I don’t like feeling emotional pain, I’d rather be physically hurt in all honesty. Physical pain goes away but not emotional, it’s always still there. I don’t like to hurt people so I know that if they see me smile they don’t have to worry. I guess I have learned this means to be “strong”. I now also know that is very unhealthy and can actually even cause you physical pain! 

I have to learn how to cope with my problems; talking, music,writing and having a personal relationship with god really help me. I have to learn it’s ok to not be “ok”. People actually respect that, they won’t get offended if you just explain you are not in the mood for talking or just have a lot going on. 


Try not isolate yourself I tend to do that as well. Talking and letting out your feelings really does help. You may even need medication because you are depressed, there is no shame to that. Only you know what you’re going through and you’re the one who has to deal with it. You deserve to live the happiest life you can achieve. Try to find a healthy way to express yourself through something you love. Try new things til you find your thing it WILL be worth it. Try to feel your feelings if you have to cry, then cry, if you want scream, then scream. It is better to let your emotions out, but don’t use that as an excuse to hurt those around you. The best advice I could give you is talk to someone. Even if you don’t think it helps it really does! Find someone you trust or if it’s easier a stranger, just letting out what you have inside will help I promise. 

I’m still laughing most things away, but I’m learning it’s ok to express my emotions and dealing with them. You can’t hide them in forever. So go take that first step and fight for your happiness.

 

P.s – Hope that picture above made you smile!

-Katye

Ipsy Glam bag unboxing! Oct/17


Hey guys! So today I’ll be unboxing this month’s ipsy bag! I’m not a huge fan of the theme since I feel most October themed things are mostly Halloween related. The products were amazing though.

Let’s start off with the bag it’s very pretty but I will probably never use it. The bat detail is really cute and The crimson red color is great for autumn.


Urban Decay 24/7 Glide-On Eye Pencil in Perversion


These eyeliners are amazing they seriously don’t budge! This should be a staple in your makeup bag plus they have so many colors! I really enjoyed getting this in my bag.

Cute Balms Lip Balm in Vanilla



I have always thought the cute macaroon packaging is adorable, now I finally have one of my own! It is a vanilla scented lip balm which is much needed now that we are going into the colder months! On the down side, I don’t really like lip products you have to stick your finger into so we’ll see. 

tarte deluxe lifted sweatproof mascara


Tarte is just amazing being cruelty free, and vegan, pretty much anyone can use it. The packaging is so girly and did I mention it’s sweatproof! My eyelashes are pretty straight so I’m excited to see the lift this mascara will give my lashes!

MEECH AND MIA Loose Eyeshadow in Purple 


I’m not a huge fan of dark colors and loose eyeshadows but it’s very pretty and the smoky purple eyeshadow goes great with this months theme. It’s not tested on animals, and I have to say I appreciate the packaging as well very nice and clean.

Pretty Woman Nail Polish in Wine With Ice, Garçon

I was introduced to these nail polishes through ipsy and I LOVE them! I’m always looking for dark colors for fall and this one is great. It is “crack and chip-resistant” and the packaging is so adorable! Like I said I’m a sucker for cute packaging. 

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Thank you so much for reading! If you guys have questions, comments or suggestions please leave them below!

BareMinerals Voxbox!

Hey guys! I’m here to review the BareMinerals BarePRO foundation given to me from influenster !


Is it possible that a foundation looks better the longer you have it on? I would say YES! I love the formula a little goes a long way! My dad who never notices actually commented on how smooth my face looked? He even told me I should keep buying it… I think that’s a VERY good sign. It’s comfortable, I forgot I had it on and it just seemed to look better and better the longer I had it on!


The one problem I do have is my skin has been So dry, nothing seems to not highlight my dry patches! I did feel like after this foundation settled it looked better. 


I wish the brush they recommend came with it. For some reason I feel like the application would have been better with the brush. 

For the purpose of just trying it out, I just used my hands.



It does a great job at evening the skin tone, has SPF and as I said before it does look better once it’s settled in. I personally would say use a primer before.

Overall I would recommend, if you want to know where you can get this foundation I’ll link it below, Also if wanna join influenster I will also have a link below. Thank you for reading to the end! 

Get BareMinerals BarePRO here

Sign up for Influenster here 

Disclaimer: I received this product complementary for testing. All opinions are my own.

Ipsy Glam bag September 2017

Hey guys I know I’m posting this on the last days of September! Sorry, I have been struggling with mental health lately, but I’m getting the help I need so everything should be better soon. 

I finally have something ready for you guys so I hope you enjoy!

Can we simply take a moment to admire the simplicity and beauty of this bag! I love it, the inside is like a dark royal blue. The small studding all over gives just the correct amount of detail. It’s perfect. 

This months theme is Like a boss! So if you want to see what’s inside just keep scrolling!

P.R.M.I.T Beauty – GELlusion  shade January (Capricorn)


When I saw this nail polish it was screaming autumn. I put it on immediately. 

I loved it and so did my mom,  she snatched it up real quick! Another great thing is it is PETA certified, vegan and cruelty free! I will definitely use the heck out of this nail polish.

Ciaté London – Wonderwand Mascara in Black Magic


Next is this mascara right here, again how cute is the packaging! I love how the product seems magical.

This is a good mascara, the brush definitely gives volume and covers every eyelash. I also felt the wand gave me control over where and how much mascara I wanted to brush on.


I have straight eyelashes, but it definitely made a difference. I did not curl my lashes, prime them nothing. If you go all out with just the curling of the lashes It would look even better! It didn’t get too hard when it dried and it did not smudge- well since I was having an emotional day I had to put the mascara to the test ( had a crying session) and it did smudge off. Then again it never claimed to be waterproof. Definitely a mascara I like.

Eva NYC – Zero Gravity Volume Powder


You guys, packaging is everything! I will literally buy something I don’t even need because of cute packaging! In my opinion, this brand is killing it with their pink, fun, hair products! This product promises to give you volume and texture all with a sprinkle of this weightless, moisturizing powder.

Smashbox Cosmetics– PHOTO FINISH RADIANCE PRIMER

So this Is a primer from smashbox, a brand I really like, I guess I wasn’t all that excited with it becuase I try to stay away from shiny things on my skin ( I’m really not even a huge fan of highlighter)  but I’m excited to try. SmashBox primers haven’t let me down before, It has multi usage, you can you use under make up and on top as a highlighter. 

NEOGEN Dermalogy– Real Flower Cleansing Water – Rose


Let me just start by saying if you buy a full bottle of this it has actual rose petals in it! Can you say fancy? I really love my simple micellar water, but when I wanna feel extra pampered why not reach for this! It smells So Good!! I would use it as perfume if I could! 

Extra goodies:

Lime CrimeUnicorn Hair Duo in Blue Smoke

Common Labs – Mild Peeling Finger Pad

The above products were just extras I got with my points!

Thank you so much for reading! Sorry I have been so bad at writing lately! Please tell me what you think?! Any suggestions, comments welcome!

Also if you want an ipsy bag click here

-Katye

August Ipsy Glam bag!

Hey guys! My August ipsy bag is here and I wanna share it with you guys! 


The bag is super cute! Love the tassel and the ombré thing going on the products were awesome as well.

The bag included:

First Aid Beauty: Skin Rescue Deep Cleanser with Red Clay


Crown Brush: SS035 – Medium Face Contour Brush


theBalm Cosmetics: theBalm Voyage Vol. 2 Eyeshadow in Willkommen

 

Marc Anthony True Professional: Strictly Curls Curl Envy Perfect Curl Cream


Steve Laurant: Precision Tip Liner in Black

Well, that’s it guys! I thought to make this post nice and short if you have any questions, want to know more about a certain product or just want to chat leave a comment below! Btw I’m curious, what did you get in your ipsy bag? And if you are not signed up yet what are you waiting for? Click here to subscribe to ipsy!

Thank you for reading!

-Katye

Things I HAVE to share with you!!! PT.1 

Hey there guys, how’s it going? I feel like lately I have tried some great things worthy of sharing with you! Do you want to know what my picks are? Keep reading!

Today I have some recommendations for skin care, makeup, stores, snacks, blogs and apps!  

SNACKS:

Let’s start off with snacks! One of my fav. YouTubers is OBSESSED with Angie’s BoomChickaPop popcorn! After so many years I gave in and purchased some. OMG it is so good, I completely get why people are obsessed with it. The best part of all? It’s made with Real, simple ingredients. Plus, they have so many flavors to pick from! If you want a yummy snack and you don’t want to sacrifice flavor? This is for you guys.

(Above is my dog being super protective over the popcorn!)

Next thing I have been into is the Brookside crunchy clusters,  I don’t have a picture (they didn’t last that long) but I can tell you the flavor I had was the almond and berry flavor. They have a variety of mixes with different fruits, nuts and even bars.

Blogs:

Right away when it comes to blogs I have a couple to share with you. Most are a mix of DIY and beauty, plus most if not all of them are run by great females and are a HUGE inspiration to me!

A Beautiful Mess

Twinspiration 

Studio DIY 

Brit+Co

Go check them out!

Apps:

Honestly, my number one app I ALWAYS use when shopping is Ebates. I mean you get cash back for shopping? How great is that. If you shop online a lot this is for you! You can even receive cash back in stores as well double yay!

Next app and store I LOVE is Hollar. They have such great deals there. We order from there at least once a month, no lie both my sis and I! 

Even the individual who delivers our mail had a conversation with my mom about how they had never heard of it before, they went on the page out of curiosity and they had great deals! Plus, who can go wrong with that bright, orange box?

I’ll be back with a Pt.2 so for now let me know below some of your favorites in the comments.

-Katye

Ipsy Glam bag! July/17


Hello everyone here I am again showing you what I got in my July Ipsy Glam bag!

If you wanna see what was in my bag this month keep scrolling.


This months bag features Gudetama, a Japanese cartoon also known as “The Lazy Egg”. The theme was overeasy/Lazy beauty because we all need to take a step back from life and chill. 


Jersey Shore Cosmetics      Mandarin Green Orange & Ginger Mongongo Lip Conditioner

So let’s talk about this, I was SO EXCITED for this product. The packaging looked adorable and It was described as a citrus scented balm and you know I love anything citrus scented….I WAS FOOLED! I’m sorry this was awful, I didn’t like it at all! I immediately took it off my lips it was that bad in MY opinion. 


tarte                                         Rainforest of the Sea™ deep dive cleansing gel

I’m happy to see this product in my ipsy bag, I needed a new cleanser. My sister has it and she likes it. Plus it smells really nice and fresh!

OFRA Cosmetics                            Gold Rush Eyeshadow

I really like OFRA eye shadows, they have awesome pigmentation. I already have a BUNCH of eye shadows around the same color scheme so this is something that I like, but don’t really need.


Seraphine Botanicals               Lychee + Gold

Never tried this brand, but I’m excited for more! Their packaging is beautiful, this blush is girly! I’m kind of thinking I could use this maybe as an eyeshadow as well!


COUGAR Beauty Products              24 Hour Liquid Lipstick in Mulberry

New brand, very light weight on the lips. I am not a fan of pink tones, I tend to like more darkish, nude lip colors. This was really nice for a change. It’s a “24 hour” liquid lipstick and I had ice cream, Let’s just say my ice cream had some pink in it!


Well I wanted to end this blog with showing you the back of the ipsy bag! It’s adorable ( look at his little butt haha) Thank you for reading and please tell me what did you get in your ipsy bag? What was your fav. Product? Dislikes? Are you not an ipster yet? Become an Ipsy member by clicking here!

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Ipsy bag review June 2017

Hey everyone, How’s “summer” treating you guys? Over here in Massachusetts the weather gets a bit crazy but we are feeling the heat.

Today I have our monthly Ipsy bag review! Do you guys like this? If there is anything you guys would want me to write about and/or if you have any suggestions please let me know!


I was a little dissapointed with the bag. Yes, it’s cute but I feel like they have had better ones in the past. I also feel it should be more about summer, Or is it just me? We have some intresting products here including a black primer? Excited to try some of these out though.


NYX Professional Makeup 

Whipped Lip & Cheek Soufflé

At last I have found the perfect nude for me! I love this, it’s almost like a lipgloss. It did come off fairly fast, so I would need to keep reapplying.

PEEK Beauty 

Multiuse Black Primers

Now this primer I was really curious about and a bit excited! First thing,  I did not enjoy the packaging I have #sausagefingers so it was EXTREMELY hard to get this little tin open. Not going to lie it looked really weird and felt like lip balm. I tried it… I was impressed. It really made my eyeshadow pop! You can even use it by itself as a smoky eye. Would I ever buy it? Eh, I don’t think so, but it does the job.


City Color Cosmetics           

Shimmer Shadow

The eye shadow is in the shade Beach Cottage. I like this eyeshadow brand, I have used it before. This color is beautiful. You know what pops into my head when I see this eyeshadow? Mermaid. I actually used this eye shadow with the black primer. With and without it, it is a very pigmented, beautiful color. It did go on smoother with the primer, then again I just used my fingers. It is sparkly, bold and screams summer to me.

Beauty For Real 

I-LINE 24-7 Eyeliner

I get so many eyeliners from ipsy! I’m not mad though. This eyeliner…. I wasn’t really digging it. First, I could not get the eyeliner out of the tube! Then I guess I turned (rotated) it waaay to much and so much came out it broke! I could not get it to go back into the tube. That alone got me mad. There website says to roatate 25+ times…. I really wish it was on the packaging, so I really did not bother try it on my eyes. I swatched it on my hand it was pigmented, smooth, but I didn’t like the color for myself. 


Trissola 

Chia 5-in-1 Defining Curl Cream

I am super excited about this product. My hair grew back curlier then it was, and with that comes ALOT OF FRIZZ! So the first thing that popped right out was frizz control! It promises to define curls and add shine to hair. I’m really excited to try this out!

So that was this months ipsy bag please tell me what you guys think, and if you want to try ipsy out it is only $10 dollars a month! Use my link here 

Until next time, bye!

Katye